I feel lame.

So I'm not sure if I feel like a tool for getting a blog or not but I'm thinking yes.
I just wanna be trendy, let's be honest.

So the thing is I actually just feel like typing how I feel about all of the people I tend to be around because remembering how I feel now is important or something. Like I read something on my old Livejournal from 9th grade where I wrote a little paragraph to all of my best friends and it's ridiculous how much I just don't remember ANYTHING. So documenting things will help or something.

So, who are people...

Hayli- I am completely unsure what I would do without you... like honestly you are the one person I'm actually close to who I think gets it. You know, the it. I hate that you're going away but at the same time I'm really excited that you get to meet new people and start everything new and have straight friends (!!!) and all of that jazz. I know you're gonna do great things and I love you!
Darren- You've been around for forever and I know you think we tune you out but you are absolutely a key part of any "us" there may be and it's been crazy watching you grow up. I'm very proud of all you've done and I hope you never settle. I love you a ton and you better not forget that.
Kyle- I am beyond glad that you came into my life. Even with your totally oblivious nature, you are always looking out for me and everyone else and that means a lot. I love you SO MUCH and my only regret is that you came into my life so late... I'm going to miss you so much when you're at LSU. I doubt I'll know what to do without your company. Again, I love you, and it's great watching you mature.
Matt- You better remember how much I care about you. I think you may think I stopped caring much about you, but I care immensely. I still love you just as much as ever, and whatever has happened will not be allowed to end our friendship. I'm betting that being some of the only people left here may bring us closer, but whatever the case I love you, no matter how much of a mess you feel like from time to time.
Lizz- I really regret not knowing you on a more one-on-one level, but I still consider you a best friend. You are one of the funniest most complex people I have ever met, and while I don't think I'll ever get to totally understand you it's been great spending high school with you. I hate that you're going away but I know it's what you need and it's going to be great for you.
Josh- I really think you're coming back into my life, slowly but surely, and I'm so glad. My love for you hasn't decreased in the past few years, just our time together... I can't wait to spend senior year with you, and you still probably know me better than anyone.
Brett- Eff, man. I miss you so much. I think it's probably best for our friendship that we're apart, it made us work for it, and you're worth it. I'll never understand why you care about me so much, but I love you and I'm glad you do. I will be heartbroken if we don't stay friends for just about forever.
Will- I can't say I know why I care about you so much, but I do and I like to think we'll be friends for a long while. You seem to put some sort of weird trust and love into our friendship so I mean hey, I'll take whatever I can get. I can tell you're going to be great in life, and I hope I know you through it all.
Sarah- You're real, and I love you, and I'm glad we're friends.
Celino- I'm so glad we're friends... I wouldn't make it through school without you. You keep my head straight and trust me without worrying and I just want to thank you... I'm horrified that we will lose touch if I don't go live with you in Baton Rouge, but we will see!
Ross- I realize we aren't half as close as we've been before, but I still feel like you're easier to talk to than nearly anyone I know. You seriously have your head together and I'm just glad we're friends. You are also more talented than I can even explain, and you're going to go so far. We need to work on this whole friendship thing, though.
Tim- Okay so I realize we have hung out literally 3 times ever, but I think I have some the best times I've ever had around you and you're just a ton of fun. I hope we somehow remain friends and see each other fairly reguarly, because that would be awesome.

Okay so I'm tired of typing so that's all the people for today.

Now there are a myriad of lyrics which are fitting for my mood, sooo we are going to just post an assload of lyrics.


"You know this is it, don't be afraid to show me. No, don't hesitate, I just might slip away..."

"When everything was a mess, and everything was in place, and there's too much hurt, and small, scared, alone, and everyone's a cynic, and it's hard and it's sweet, but it's supposed to be like this..."

"I try not to let my emotions show, but it ain't a balloon I can just let go..."

"Sometimes I wish that I could stop you from talking when I hear the stupid things you say. Somebody better turn off the big light because I can't stand to see you this way..."

"Unchain me from this spot and keep me from being alone, 'cause I'm no good at being alone..."


Okay I'm stopping myself at five. Know that there are 893 more.